Friday, May 11, 2012

Whiney Wah

Who has some extra motivation they can share with me? I really, really, really need some. Please? Pretty please? I'd love you foreva!

My weight has been creeping up over the last however many (too many) months. Slow, steadily, & speedily at times. Ugh. I can't tell you how many times I've tried to get myself on track. Sadly, there have been too many times that I gave up, gave in, and/or said screw it.

My clothes are horrible. Most are not-nice looking, more so than before. I barely have any pants I can wear, especially for work. It sucks. But it's my fault.

I am by no means depressed. Side note: if I were, it's likely weight loss would be easier since I am more likely to restrict, have no appetite, etc when I am stressed/depressed. Not that I want to feel that way just so I can ensure weightloss, so not worth it. I'm not depressed. I am disappointed in myself, that I let it get this bad & that I am not doing anything to change it. I am frustrated that I lack motivation.

Let's talk some numbers. As of this morning, I was at about 126.7 lb. Which wouldn't be bad, except I am under 5' tall & it puts my BMI at about 26.5, which is classified as overweight. To be at the high end of normal, I need to lose around 7.5lbs. To be at a weight I feel mostly 'comfortable' at, I need to lose about 20lbs. My goal is somewhere in the 90s though (will see when it gets near).

So I am visiting my blog to post a whiney/complain-filled entry. Because I can't/won't talk about it in the 'real world' & I know so many of you can/do understand what I am going through. I love you all. I still read blogs even when I don't post. But since I do so from my phone, it is hard to comment. I really need to look into the possibility of getting some internet up in hurrrr.

Hope ya'll are having a fabulous week/weekend ahead! :)