Wednesday, July 27, 2011


Ugh.  Yes, ugh.  That's how I feel about my weight/body lately.  It would actually prolly be more of a drawn out groan though, honestly.  Every time I make even a little progress, I destroy it & end up right back where I was before.  What the hell?  Why can't I just keep myself going forward instead of tripping backward?  It's ridiculous, it really is.  I need to snap out of this cycle before I get worse & start really gaining, beyond where I keep end up lately.

I think I might write a mean-like letter to myself.  Try to reread it constantly.  Have reminders of why I need to stop doing what I'm doing now & why I want to do better & be better.  And actually, not just for weight/body stuff, but other things in life I'd like to improve as well.

I have one buddy now that I try to keep up with just about daily.  That's nice & is helpful.  I would like more, but haven't found any yet.  So if anyone's looking... ;)

Other than the usual weight issues, not much has been going on.  Gotten more used to driving a stick.  Working, but still not much, which I could get more hours or a 2nd/different job so I could make some more mulah.  The heat & humidity has died down, so that's a nice little relief.  I had a family reunion (dad's side) & a wedding/reception (mom's side) on Saturday, both in the area of my hometown, so that was nice, I got to see a ton of my family, which doesn't happen often.

What is a goal you have/had for this week, that is non-weight related?

Monday, July 18, 2011


It's Monday night!  Jeese, the last couple days I have been all mixed up on what day it is.  I thought Sunday felt like a Monday & today I thought was Tuesday all day, until tonight when it seemed more like Sunday.  Oh my goodness.  Thankfully I am able to remind myself so that I don't miss work or end up being late or something on the days I have to be there.

Yesterday, I took my lil man to the beach around 7ish & we stayed until just after 9, when the sun was almost set.  It was still so super hot out, but near the lake it was nicely breezy.  It's nice that there is a huge body of water so nearby to go to to cool off, rather it be just being near it or in it.

Last night, not sure what time, but in the wee hours, I woke up & it was just a storming outside.  Wind, thunder, lightning, rain.  My computer was open on my nightstand & I was going to check the radar but the internet wasn't working (which always happens when it storms at all).  So I got up because I knew a couple windows were left open.  Upon turning on (or trying to) the hallway light, I realize we had lost electricity.  I shut the windows & laid back down, listening to the storm until I fell back asleep.  Sometime before I woke up this morning, we had gotten electricity back, thankfully.

Today it was too hot to do much of anything (unless we had gone to the beach again, but we didn't).  I did run to the store, but other than that, I basically stayed in front of a fan & half-napped or browsed around online.

It doesn't look like this heat & humidity is going anywhere either.  The forecast for the week shows hot temps & a couple days with my storms.  Too bad it hasn't just rained so we could go out & play in it! ;)

I ate horribly today.  Too much & some of the choices were not good ones.  Dinner was not horrible (Subway, which I had my usual turkey on wheat with just cheese & lettuce, plus 1 white choc macadamia nut cookie), but some of the other stuff I ate today (popcorn, a cherry turnover, mini chocolate chip cookies (tho I didn't eat a whole ton of those at least), root beer).  I guess I am going to see a gain in the morning. :(  I bought orange juice this weekend & would like to do a day of just drinking that, but I have to figure out when would be a good day & if I can stick to it.  I am so unmotivated lately, about anything.  Not just diet/exercise, but even getting other things done.  Partly I think because of the heat (at least when it comes to exercise or moving around much, lol).

Anyways, I hope everyone's week is starting off great!  And if not, I hope it gets better! <3

Saturday, July 16, 2011

Foto Friday 31

I have a Foto Friday!  Yay!  Some pics I took in June on my phone, a couple even particular to go in a Foto Friday post & am finally getting around too.  I've been busier than usual, working more (though still only part time hours) & of course, keeping up with & taking care of my lil one.

I wish I could say being busier meant losing weight, but as has become the norm for me, I've been eating too much crap.  Even when I'm not eating more than I need/should, I make bad choices on what it is I am eating.  I need to reverse that habit & quick!  I think I'd like a buddy to help motivate me.  Someone I am specifically checking in with & hearing on their efforts/progress, rather they have similar goals to mine or not.  Anyone interested?

Oh, & I bought a car Thursday, finally, after 3.5 weeks without one.  But now I have to get used to driving a stick, as I have only done so a handful of times in my life.  Right now I mainly need to work on getting going from a complete stop (either to get going in the first place or after a stop sign), other than that I am doing alright.  It's only been a lil more than a day, so hopefully it will become more natural & less troublesome for me like everyone says it will, lol.


Hobby Lobby has Christmas stuff! (And this was like a month ago, I'm sure the Christmas section is much more filled by now.)

Coffee mugs. "I never knew life was going to be so hard!"/Sally & "Is there no one to rescue me?"/Snoopy

Hot pink yarn!  I will get some one day...

My blood pressure reading at one of those store thingies.  I'm always surprised I have a relatively normal reading (at the store or the doctor's), at least so often.  When I was a teenager, my mom used to tell me I was going to have a heart attack by the time I was 18 (because I would get worked up about stuff sometimes, although I don't think it was an abnormal amount, lol).

T-shirt @ Target.

Have a great weekend & week to come!  It's going to be a scorcher (at least for those in my area of the US & prolly other areas of the country & world, even)!  :) <3