Monday, November 29, 2010


Wow, it's been like 2 weeks since I posted.  Not that it's a surprise to me, I've realized all along that time that I wasn't posting.  And even though I've not done much commenting, I have been reading your blogs (although I a currently about a day behind from being out of town yesterday & work, etc today).  I wish I could say it was because I was super busy with life or with exercising or something.  Even though I am working for the holidays, I only work part time.  The one thing I was busy with for a few days was sorting through all my stuff that has been in storage for nearly a year.  Like I said, I've been around, just a little less than usual & not able to think of anything to post about (though I wish I would've had picture for Foto Friday @ least one of the weeks I missed).

As of this morning I was 0.2lb above my last met goal, which isn't a big deal except it sucks that I've gained lately, but thankfully not too bad (especially with Thanksgiving & stuff recently).  I had wanted to meet my next goal by now, but I guess now I shall attempt to get it by Christmas/New Year's Eve.  I may have gained weight today, but as of this morning, my next goal would be 4.2lb away.

Thanksgiving was good, I went to my son's grandparents (because they live only a mile away), which also meant minimal leftovers (that were sent home with us).  Then I had to go to work that night until early morning for Black Friday.  There was a huge table of food there for break time, but I ate minimally really (mostly because I was still somewhat full from Thanksgiving lunch).

My 10-year reunion was Saturday night.  Kinda hard to believe it's been 10 years, both ways: sometimes it seems less & others it seems more.  It went well, I gotta to see a few friends I still am in contact with but don't see often because we all live all over now.  And I got to see some other people from my class, so that was cool.  I went to my hometown for it but didn't have time to see my family.

Today I had to work 4 hours, then I went browse-shopping (kind of like window shopping, but not looking through windows, lol) & had an early dinner @ Applebee's (I had 3 cheese chicken penne & an oriental chicken salad, somewhat luckily it was some all you can eat pick & pair lunch things & I was quite full after just the first serving, & each item was "lunch-sized" so not as huge as normal).

So yeah, that's what I've been up to, nothing super exciting.  I am hoping to get more hours with the retail season picking up.  I want to make some money while I have a job (& hopefully will find another one to line up before this is over) & it helps keep me busy (away from food & standing most of the time).

<~Random image from Googling.

I hope everyone is doing well!  Please let me know how you've been or say hi even, lol.  I've missed posting & commenting, but I am glad I have at least been able to keep up with reading your beautiful blogs.  I hope those who celebrate had a wonderful Thanksgiving & are enjoying the start of the holiday season (I know the food part can suck, but I like the other parts like decorations, the spirit of it, family, etc & even baking for others).

Sunday, November 14, 2010


A little thinspo (kinda) to get the post started.  This is a screen shot of the November (so far) archive of my tumblr.  As you can see, there are a lot of thinspo posts.  I try to post thinspo a few times a week & usually a few at a time.  Some are from the folder on my computer, some are ones I came across on the net at that time, & others are reblogs from tumblr.  So if you ever want to go check it out, go for it (lol)!  I obviously post it there more than on the one page I have here that I only update with a few pics every month or so.  It's much fresher & ongoing over there.

Anyways... pretty uneventful weekend really, & week as well, but I suppose that can be a good thing.  Especially compared to a drama filled one.  I started a temporary/holiday job.  It's barely any hours/week, but it is at least something.  It distracts me too.  It helps me not eat during that time, because I haven't brought in anything with me & I have stayed away from the vending machines.  It's too bad the shifts aren't longer, lol.  But then again if they were, I would prolly have to take a lunch break & that is a waste of time, right?  What would I do?  Eat?  Pretty likely, so boo to that.  If I do ever have any longer shifts I will have to bring something to do along (read, crossword, whatever) or stay busy on my phone.

The scale has been decently nice to me this week.  I have been somewhat slowly going down, but I will take what I can get.  Yesterday I hit a new (known) year low & today I beat that.  Hopefully that keeps up.  I did a few 24 hour fasts, which helps a bit, even though I eat a small meal type inbetween.  One day I ended up having 2 because I got a last minute (had to go) invite to dinner at family's.  It wouldn't have been so bad had I not just literally finished my fast break.  Or not touched the second biscuit (I am a sucker for carbs, especially in the form of rolls, noodles, etc).  I maintained from that, so it wasn't too awful.

I also bought some green tea pills (generic mega T) yesterday, right before work.  I took one then & then one this afternoon (supposed to take 2, one in morning & then afternoon).  Yesterday I didn't get tired at work, despite standing the whole time (6 hours minus one 15 min break) & it being during the evening when I usually hit my lull when I get tired but it's too late for a nap & too early for bed.  And today I didn't notice much tiredness either, & a few moments a lil... I don't know the word, it's almost jittery but not, almost like the step before, if that makes sense.

I used my elliptical this week!  Yay! I did 2 miles 5 days, none on Friday, & only 1 today.  Plus I worked 6 hour shifts Friday (with no break other than to pee & get a drink from the water fountain) & Saturday (one 15 min break) where I was standing the whole time.  Mostly just standing in place, but it's something I suppose.

I hope you are all doing fabulous!  I've noticed some people are having a rough time while others seem to be doing quite well.  I enjoy any type of blog posts (of course I don't want you to be upset in any way, but if you are, I am glad you can vent on blogger & hopefully it will help in some way).  Have a wonderful week! :)

Friday, November 12, 2010

Foto Friday 22

This week's Foto Friday is another themed one!  I took pictures during my quick stroll through the grocery store Thursday evening to share with you.  Don't fret, there aren't any super-bad-but-yummy treats ahead.  I would say everything is pretty safe.

Fish in the aquarium.  I have no idea how many calories since I don't eat goldfish & the like. (Didn't buy any either.)

I thought these were the cutest cans! I loved when the soda companies came out with the mini 8oz, theses are slightly less, but they are a bit taller & thinner (fitting, huh?). Good size to stick in your purse or book bag or something. 0 cals. (Didn't buy these.)

Go-Gurt! This is mostly for my lil man, but still yummy!  70 cals per tube.

I love these because you get a yummy (but not so sweet it might make you eat a bunch of sweets) cookie & a fortune!  A serving size is 5 & only has 130 calories (or 26 each).  I usually just eat one here & there when I have them.

I didn't buy this, but I walked past it & thought of my lovely readers/bloggers! I actually have some of this already.

I purchased 3 items: go-gurt, fortune cookies, & I also bought a big ole bag of generic froot loops that I didn't take a picture of.  But those are pretty much totally for lil man anyways.  I hope everyone is having a great week & I hope November is turning out to be an awesome month for you all!  And if not, I hope it turns around soon! <3 you all! :)

Monday, November 8, 2010


Confestions = confessions + questions, get it?  Yeah, I'm a lil dorky at times. :-P  I've had this done for a lil while, just needed to finish up a couple small things to post it.  Kept forgetting or having other posts though.  This might be kind of long...

Random stuff about me...
*I was a cheerleader for both football & basketball for 3 years (8th-10th grade).

*I ran track in high school, all 4 years.  I originally joined to have something to do in the spring sports season, but ended up loving it even though I wasn't very good.  I mostly ran sprints (100m, 200m) at first, but eventually I did the 100m & 800m, & also occasionally relays.  I tried long jump (because my coach made me), but having short legs doesn't help you jump far, plus it messed with my knee.

*The above mentioned knee injury was actually from a 4th grade winter recess game of kickball, when I went to take off from 2nd base, I slipped & hit my knee on the patch of ice on the base.  It rarely bothers me though.

*I don't actually hate food, as much as I wish I did though.  I hate what it does.  It makes me gain weight/fat, crave it, & it taunts me.

*I chose to major in psych because it was the only subject in high school (& that class was only half a year long) that I had any further interest in.  I still haven't a clue what I want to do in the field.

*I chose my minor to be sociology simply out of convenience.  I already had almost enough credits to do so, so I went ahead & finished them up.

*If I could choose any food to be calorie/fat free (& still taste the same), I think it would have to be ice cream.

*I'm short, as many may know since my height is over in the side bar.  I'm less than 5'.  I love it!  I know a lot of shorties don't, but I've never had a problem with it & wished to be taller.  It's much easier to hem pants or get a stool (verses pants being too short or having to constantly duck under stuff).

*I don't think this has been addressed on here before, but the name of my blog/my screen name is totally unrelated to my actual name.  I just thought it sounded pretty & wanted something unrelated so that people in my offline life wouldn't stumble across this stuff too easily.

Reader suggestions/questions...
What are you dreams like? do you dream in colour/bw.. slow/fast/normal.. can you control them? are you aware you're dreaming? 
I don't remember my dreams for the most part.  Sometimes I wonder if I dream less because of my sleep issues (especially the waking up a lot part since it seems I'd be less likely to get to the dream point of sleep.  Of those I remember, my dreams are usually in color, normal speed.  I don't recall really being able to control them but there are many times I am aware I am dreaming.

Do you have any quirks? 
I'm sure I do.  Lots, lol.  To name a couple... I always have to check the door a few times to make sure it's locked, even if it means coming back around the block (or a few).  Same thing with candles & hair styling tools being out/off.  I have to have covers when I go to bed, blanket or sheet or whatever, even if it's barely covering me.

Whats your fave food/exercise? 
My favorite food, I have so many, unfortunately, lol.  I think ice cream is definitely up there though.  My fave exercise would prolly be when it isn't purposed for that, like going for a random walk, out dancing, etc.

What were your eating habits like as a child?
Picky.  I am & always have been a picky eater, there are just a lot of things I don't like.  Although I am better now about trying new things or things that I didn't like when I was younger.  I ate whatever I wanted when I was younger, mainly sweets, without consequences, up until around puberty.

MichWhat was your biggest fear when you were seven-ish years old?
I don't remember.  I remember that I was worried my house/apt would catch fire & I would lose all my stuff quite often when I was younger.  My mom was pregnant around that time too & I wanted her to have a boy so I wouldn't have to share my room (though I guess I didn't fear it).

Recent questions from Formspring...
French Fries or Curly Fries? (TankSanchez)
The only time I really get curly fries is once in a great while at Arby's, but I do love them, I just have french fries more often.

2012, do you believe the myth? (TankSanchez)
I figure it's possible but it's also possible that it isn't true at all.  Only time will tell & there's no reason to worry about it right now.

Do you get on with your parents? (disorderedghost)
I assume this is asking if I get along with my parents, & yes, I do.

longest time you've been off school? why? (disorderedghost)
I took 3 years off between high school & college because I was absolutely bored with school & was afraid I would fail out or quit if I went right away.

most anoying thing about the internet? (disorderedghost)
Improper word use (your/you're, their/there, etc) & reading stuff overly written/typed in text mode (all shortened, letters left out, etc).

can you do the rubiks cube? (disorderedghost)
Never solved it. Don't have the attention span.

longest time you've fasted for? (disorderedghost)
Just over 4 days.  104 hours I think it was.  Fasted on water & diet soda & maybe some gum.  Back in either late 2000 or early 2001.

restricting or fasting? (disorderedghost)
Restricting, so my metabolism doesn't shut down & so I don't get too weak to care for my son (anything else I could care less about, I would push through but that is one thing I won't sacrifice or have to worry about).

favourite low cal snack? (disorderedghost)
Saltines. I don't know it they are my favorite taste wise, but they are 60 cals per 5 (usually), they don't trigger me to eat other things & they are a quick way to quiet hunger or nausea.

So there ya have it!  If you have any more questions, now or at any time, feel free to ask.  You can comment on here or email me or use social media.  I hope you all enjoyed learning a bit about me! <3  Have a great day/night! :)

Saturday, November 6, 2010

Foto Friday 21

So, it's actually Saturday I know.  But yesterday got away from me.  I had orientation of a job (it's only a seasonal part time job, but it's better than the nothing I've had recently) & even after that I wasn't home for any amount of time until almost midnight.  But I am posting Foto Friday this week, that's good (I hope)!

Since my success last weekend, I have gained 1.2lb over my Halloween met goal. :( Boo.  Gotta get back on track.  Gonna try to do alright this weekend  then kick it back up on Monday.  Hopefully.  Maybe I need a Twitter or email pal or something, lol.  I'm sure it will help at least somewhat to have even a part time job, to occupy some of my time.

I hope you are all doing splendidly!  And hopefully November is going great for you goals & plans thus far.

Pumpkin donuts from around Halloween.  They were in the kids tray.  They were decently small too, & so cute!

I hadn't seen these in years & found them last year (I think) when I took my son to Toys R Us to spend his birthday money.  Last time I went in, I couldn't find any but then a few days ago I was in there & found them again.  I also love Chewy Gobstoppers but I haven't seen them in years.

 This picture is on the side of the SpongeBob Squarepants Operation game.  Lil strange, lol.

I just like the smiley face they made on this juice box (the juice is yummy too).

I hate cold weather, especially when it gets really cold.  But I love Christmas & I love a white Christmas even more.  I love the decorations.  This is part of the Christmas section/set up at Menards.

Monday, November 1, 2010


I have been away for a while.  Well, not really away, I've still been reading other blogs & leaving comments (especially last night & today), but I haven't posted.  I know I missed Foto Friday too.  Friday was just an awful day for me mentally & I didn't do much of anything.  I didn't forget about it, I just wasn't up for it.  It luckily lasted mostly just that day & I am alright now.

I had mentioned before that I thought I might post the chart from the Excel file I use to track my weight.  So here is October's.

By the way, each horizontal line is 2 pounds.  The steeper drop at the end can be explained by fasting.  The first fast started Thurs, Oct. 28 @ 10:30p & lasted until Sat, Oct. 30 @ @;30p (40 hours).  I spent a lot of Saturday morning in bed because I didn't feel well (due to fasting), upset tummy & lightheadedness/nausea when I got up for more than like 30 seconds.  I then took a 20 minute break to eat 2 slices of toast w/ spray no cal butter & a 16oz Pepsi (340 cals total).  I started fasting again at 2:50p & went for 24 hours.  Sunday I had a small bowl of mac & cheese for lunch.  Dinner was sloppy joe's, rice & chips.  Plus I had candy from my son's trick or treating.  I thought I would have gained at least a pound, but I only gained 0.2lb, which shocked me (happily).

I also met my next weight goal, assuming it sticks (so far it's been yesterday & today).  I met it yesterday, on Halloween, like I had hoped but before the weekend (with fasting) didn't think would happen.  So yay!  I would love to reach my next one by the time my 10 Year Reunion rolls around (planning on going if I can), which is the Saturday after Thanksgiving (Nov. 27th).  Even though it's only a few pounds, there are some obstacles in the way.  Aside from the possible regular daily (or nightly) struggles at times, I have my son's birthday on Wednesday (I can't believe I will have a 5 year old!) & Thanksgiving right before.  I'm a little more worried about the day to day though.  Because if I can do well on the other days, then perhaps I can make up for whatever happens on those days.

Hope you all had a wonderful Halloween, for those of you who celebrated.  I took my son trick or treating.  I didn't dress up, unless you count that I was wearing his firefighter hat, because it kept falling off him.  And I had a green glow bracelet, lol.  I would love to dress up, if I ever go to another Halloween party or something.

So, that's what I've been up to & what is going on with me.  I hope you are all doing well & ready to rock November like a rockstar with all your goals & plans (weight & otherwise)!  Thank you all for reading & leaving me comments, & for having wonderful blogs for me to read! <3

Peridot: I love white Christmases.  I have spent a few in Florida where it's warm & doesn't snow, which was nice too.  But the Christmas during the 14 months I lived there was so weird, not to have any snow at all during the holiday season.  I hope you do get to see one sometime!

Mich, Piglet, Lund3on, Tracy, Jd, Sarah, Lilah Lee, Stick Thin: Thank you all for the compliments!  You are all lovely chicas!

Mich: I got that necklace on eBay actually.  I was just searching for fairy or Tinkerbell necklaces or something I think.  I got it a few years ago, but there are still some one there.