Wednesday, July 27, 2011


Ugh.  Yes, ugh.  That's how I feel about my weight/body lately.  It would actually prolly be more of a drawn out groan though, honestly.  Every time I make even a little progress, I destroy it & end up right back where I was before.  What the hell?  Why can't I just keep myself going forward instead of tripping backward?  It's ridiculous, it really is.  I need to snap out of this cycle before I get worse & start really gaining, beyond where I keep end up lately.

I think I might write a mean-like letter to myself.  Try to reread it constantly.  Have reminders of why I need to stop doing what I'm doing now & why I want to do better & be better.  And actually, not just for weight/body stuff, but other things in life I'd like to improve as well.

I have one buddy now that I try to keep up with just about daily.  That's nice & is helpful.  I would like more, but haven't found any yet.  So if anyone's looking... ;)

Other than the usual weight issues, not much has been going on.  Gotten more used to driving a stick.  Working, but still not much, which I could get more hours or a 2nd/different job so I could make some more mulah.  The heat & humidity has died down, so that's a nice little relief.  I had a family reunion (dad's side) & a wedding/reception (mom's side) on Saturday, both in the area of my hometown, so that was nice, I got to see a ton of my family, which doesn't happen often.

What is a goal you have/had for this week, that is non-weight related?


killa kristen said...

You and me both! It seems like I'm stuck fighting the same 3 pounds every week because the weekend screws everything up. Not to worry though it's better to be in the same struggle than where you first started your weight loss (trying to make light of a crappy situation lol, I probably failed). I would love to be your daily buddy! I like having them and have befriended a lot of my virtual friends into real-life friends via text messages and whatnot. I'm glad to hear you saw your family, I'm sure they were just as excited to see you as you were them. I have a goal to buy something I love in Lake George tomorrow and to spend Saturday with my family and remind them that I love them because for the past three years I've been neglecting them.

Liz said...

I'm sorry you're feeling frustrated! Don't worry about your weight; I know that you're beautiful, no matter what. Let's see... non-weight related goal would be to do more research for my thesis this week!

I hope your week is wonderful, and that you meet your goals too :)

Pralinka said...

You shouldn't feel angry or frustrated - you're strong. I will do everything to be as motivated as you ;(

By the way, I really like your style, it's unique and I read your blog so often and I just wonder..if we could follow each other.. But even if your answer is “no” I’ll be still your reader ♥

with love,