Ask Qs

Not sure if anyone will participate in this, but I thought I would put it out there by chance that someone might.  I am posting this blog in case anyone wants to ask me any question(s).  I will answer them unless I am uncomfortable doing so (such as if someone wanted to know my bank account number or something super personal or something).  I thought it might be a way for readers to get to know me a bit better.  But I'm not sure what ya'll might wanna know. ;)  Can be e.d./food/etc related or not.  And you can ask as many as you like.

I have a formspring on the right side of my blog.  I am also posting a widget to it in this blog.  You can use either to submit a question, or you can just post it as a comment on this blog.  You can also Tweet at me or email me.  Whichever way works best for you, if you have access to any of the methods or want to use a particular way that is more comfy for ya.   Later on, I will post a blog with any questions I do get & their answers.

Foto Friday 5

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Smiley face sugar cookie from a gas station.

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American flag on a light pole.

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Fire burnin'.

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Firework.

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Strawberry shortcake, yum!  Homemade biscuits & cut the strawberries myself, lol.  Now I just need to make my own whip cream, lol.

Hope you are all having a wonderful week & weekend ahead!  Good luck to everyone with whatever your plan or goals may be!  Sending cooling thoughts to those of you who are also dealing with heat/humidity like me.  And thin thoughts to everyone!

Re-goal

So, I hit my second goal on the last day of June.  Unfortunately since then I have gained 2.4 over it, so I decided to add another goal.  My third goal weight is now exactly the same as the second.  And all the other goal weights just moved a place (from second to third & so on).

I blame the weekend, & not just any weekend, but it being a holiday weekend (Independence Day/4th of July).  I hit the goal on June 29th, & was actually .2 below it.  I gained that .2 the next day though, but was still at my goal.  Then I gained .6 & then lost it over the next 2 days.  So on Friday, July 2nd, I was right at my goal.  Then came a weekend of fireside snacking & grilling & such festivities.  So over 3 days, I gained 2.4.

I'm not overly upset about it (surprisingly) because:
1) it was expected
2) it could have been worse
3) at least I didn't hit above the previous goal
Plus, it was the U.S.'s 234th birthday so really, there should have been even more food if you take into account all the years heading up to this point, lol.

Saturday night I never went to sleep.  I woke up Saturday around 8ish & was awake until Sunday around 5pm when I took like a 20 minute nap, then went to sleep 1am-ish.  I'm used to lacking sleep because of insomniatic issues I've had for years, but this one sucked because it caused me to have a panic attack around 8am Sunday (which I am convinced was mainly due to sleep deprivation) (& the panic attack wasn't all-out bad, just a lot of heavy-fast breathing & feeling super panicked), & then feeling on edge for hours after.  The short nap did help though & after last night's sleep, things seem back to normal, thankfully.

But the free-for-all food-fest is over!  It desperately needs to be, that is for sure.  I would love to re-hit the goal by the end of the week.  It's possible, I know, I just gotta get back on track.  From catching up on blogs, it seems there are quite a few others who had a food-filled weekend that was either begrudgingly accepted or successfully ignored.  I am sure I am not the only one who is headed 'back to the grind' on keeping the food away & shedding the weight.  Hugs to those of you who are in this boat or had any other difficulty recently.

So... good luck to everyone!  If you are doing well, keep it up!  If you have been doing badly (like me), right now (or any other moment) is a great time to start anew!  I hope everyone had a fantastic weekend, whether you were celebrating America's birthday or Canada Day or any other fun activities! <3

Foto Friday 4

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Way up, overlooking a river with trees as far as one can see.

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I have no idea what kind of flower this is.  But it was a pretty orangish peach color with a reddish middle.

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A group of pretty pink lillies.

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One pretty pink lily.

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The inside of my McDonald's shake cup.  Artice orange.  Yummy!  So good, but so evil...

I hope all you lovelies had a successful week & are set to have a fan-tab-u-lous weekend!  To my U.S. readers, Happy Independence Day (weekend)! :)

Sharing FMLs

I just thought I would share some FMLs (f**k my life) that I came across a couple days ago, related to eating disorders.  Most of them are kinda sad (in that whatever it was that happened, happened) & I feel bad for the person who submitted it.  But the last one (& this may be a bit mean to say) is kinda funny.

• Today, after nine months of trying to get my 75 pound son to gain some weight, I discovered why the food was disappearing and he wasn't gaining weight.  My daughter is bulimic. FML

• Today, my mom accused me of having an eating disorder, and I didn't correct her. Truth is, I lost weight after I went off the pill a year ago. I'm too embarrassed to tell my mom that I haven't had anyone in a year. FML

• Today, I was together with a few of my friends when I got up the courage to confess I have an eating disorder. One of my friends then said "... but you're not skinny." FML

• Today, I decided to eat at this new cafe near my apartment. When I sat down a super flamboyant waiter came up to me and asked for my order. I asked him what he recommended. He said "to be honest honey, you could go for the salad." I just got out of an eating disorders rehab and put on 30 pounds.  FML  

• Today, I went to my doctor for a check-up before my Caribbean vacation. He informed me I am overweight for my height and should "eat better, exercise, and lose the excess weight." I just returned from rehab for bulimia a month ago. My vacation was a celebration of overcoming my eating disorder.  FML

• Today, after four years of anorexia and lots of recovery, my parents took me out to dinner with my counselor and whole family to celebrate my progress. I ended up eating something that made me vomit everything I ate. My parents now think I am bulmic and are sending me back to counseling. FML  

• Today, I told my mom I am bulimic and have been for a few years and that I need help. She responded by saying "Well that's clearly not working for you. Why don't you try anorexia." She then patted me on my head, smiled, and walked away. FML  

• Today, I went over to the snack cabinet at my aunt's house. Excited for a snack cake, I noticed something odd on the handles. They knew I was coming over and locked it. FML