Stuffed

Ugh. I feel so stuffed. I don't think it is just my stomach though. Because I did sorta binge earlier (like 5-6 hours ago) on some gummy bears, (pre-made) ice cream cone & peanut butter twix. But in the last like 3 hours I had about 28oz. of wine & then I started feeling really full. A few minutes ago I peed, which seemed to help, thankfully. So here's to hoping more urine wants to be released!

So glad the long weekend is about over. Since I am unemployed, it isn't extra days off for me. Instead, it's more food temptation with cookouts & such. Saturday I did fairly alright. I didn't work out at all, other than causal paddling while going down a river by canoe. Today woulda been okay had I not indulged in mini chocolate donuts & pb twix for lunch, steak & a couple small brownies with small corn on the cob & a Coke for dinner, & then the late evening binge. Okay, so there was no way today was going to be okay, obviously. I didn't eat breakfast. Usually I try to in order to 'wake' my metabolism up, but once I got outta bed & finished catching up on reading blogs, I decided to go ahead & run on the elliptical (4 miles). Then it was lunch time.

So, I did meet my exercise goal for the week. At least 3 miles every day except one (Saturday). And calorie wise was mostly good other than today. I think for the upcoming week (as I start mine on Mondays), I will set none other than to keep the same elliptical goal (3 miles/day 6 days, minimum). I'm setting no calorie range because there are days I feel like I want to eat less than my lower limit. So I'm throwing that out the window. Instead I'm hoping for 1000ish max, with no minimum.

I'm still thinking a new scale is in order. Saturday it stayed consistent for the morning weigh in but Sunday was back to being erratic-like with similar weights & a couple left fielders. Screw that. :/

I hope you are all doing well in whatever goals you have! Glad to see more comments & new followers (as well as having new blogs to read myself)! I love you all for stopping by & for sharing some of your life with me!

Frenemy

My scale is my frenemy. Sometimes I love it, sometimes I hate it. Sure, what it says to me it nearly always because of what I did (or did not). But I still place some of the anger towards it. Or occasionally, some joy when it's gone down (though never far enough).

My frenemy can 'say' something & it will make me feel so accomplished & happy. Or it can make me feel like a failure & make me question myself. I love it & hate it, sometimes all in one day. I go to it more often than I should & use it repeatedly. It never seems to mind, probably used to it by now & glad to be out of the cupboard.

This is exactly what my scale looks like, except the display. Mainly, the readout isn't as clear. It used to be to where it might make it hard to differentiate what it was saying, but it magically got slightly better to where some segments are dimmed instead of missing altogether.

I was going to get a new one before it started getting better. And then I decided to wait. And now I am going to start looking at my options. I discovered something yesterday. My frenemy can't decide what to say to me. If I step on, I get one weight. But then if I tap it (to turn it on) & either 'error' it by stepping on too soon or just let it shut off, then tap it on & weigh again (& repeat, repeat, repeat...), I get varying numbers. Most of the numbers are within a small range, but sometimes they are quite a bit different (either up or down).

I always knew that trusting my frenemy wasn't a great idea. Because it doesn't take into consideration that I might still have liquid or solids inside me or that I might be retaining water or that while I may have lost fat, I gained muscle. But now I know I can trust it even less.

I think it is time to let my frenemy go & find a replacement. A younger, more confident (in what it reads) one. If anyone has suggestions, feel free to let me know about any models/brands/etc. I need one that is on the cheap side, but it reliable. If I can find it on amazon that would be great, otherwise in store might have to do. Thanks!

P.S. I realize speaking of a scale this way might make me seem a little loopy in the head, but something tells me a lot of you will understand this relationship with it, lol.

Pills

So, yeah, I was craving some damn breadsticks & so that's what I had for dinner. 3 of them. Which is only 450 calories (which is a lot but up to that point I had only had 250 for the day). At least they were from the freezer & not a restaurant or something, cause those tend to be much worse. They aren't even high in fat (but carbs, yes, lol). I think the damn things screwed me.

I didn't workout at all in the morning or afternoon. After dinner time though I did 10 miles on the elliptical. But even a couple hours later I was up at least a pound & a half. Which is a lot really to be up at the end of the day & gives me a strong suspicion that I will likely be up on the scale in the morning. :( After finding this out, I took a Stacker 3, which I had leftover from long ago when I used to take them with every meal. I don't know how effective they are but it seemed like they helped to some extent but perhaps it was some sort of placebo effect or all in my head. I still have four more. I knew it was a dumbass idea to take one, because it was early nighttime & it likely meant sleep would be delayed. But that often happens to me anyways, so might as well try to get some benefit from it.

Not sure if it is helping burn anything off though. Also, I drank like 40 oz. of water while I was on the elliptical & I haven't peed much. Normally I urinate constantly when I drink water (one reason I hate to drink it much). But that seems to be the case lately with the water I drink while working out so I don't think that's the problem.

Despite the big carb dinner, & a tiny snack after (to take the pill with) & another small snack to up my total calorie count (none of which made my scale go higher), I am still 20 cals short of the lower limit of my goal range. I'm letting it slide for today, it's minor. And hoping that against the odds, there will be some loss tomorrow, or at the very least, no change (& hell to the no on a gain). Oh, & get this, my stupid stomach thinks it's hungry. Too damn bad, it will have to wait until breakfast. I've already been ignoring it for a couple hours & I'm not at all worried that I will give in to it before then. Hopefully it will make my body burn up storage (aka nasty fat).

So, a question for the readers (whom I adore ;) ). Have you tried any energy and/or diet pills? What were they supposed to do? What did they actually do? Any other comments on them? I would greatly appreciate some feedback on this. Thanks, you rock!

Foampop

Yesterday went well. I hit my calorie range. I ran 6.5 miles on the elliptical in the morning & another 5 miles in the evening. I did a tad bit of toning exercises for arms & abs. This morning I had lost almost a pound. Hoping it sticks. I guess I am always a little leery of bigger losses, just because it seems so different from the tiny or lack of loss ones. Even though I make sure I get the same number 4 (sometimes 5) times in a row before I count it.

I'm including the links for the YouTube videos I got the toning exercises from. I just found the arm one randomly, then checked out the ab one too. There are more in the series, but I haven't checked them out yet. I usually go thru them at least twice (like last night I went thru all of the arm ones then all the abs, then all arms & all abs again). And I just add a couple reps if I feel like I can.

5 Minute Tone - Arms

5 Minute Tone - Abs

I'm enjoying keeping up with everyone's blogs! And I love when I find I have a new follower or a new comment! I hope everyone is having a fantastic day & week!

Humid Hot

I didn't do fantastic food wise yesterday, but pretty alright. I had a family hang out thing in the afternoon. Beforehand, I did 5 miles on the elliptical & then a half hour later another 1.6 before I absolutely had to get ready to go.

5/23---
Elliptical: 6.6 miles total
Breakfast: 2 bites of cake & 6 apple slices
Lunch: sweet tea, chips, hamburger/bun
Snack: maple nut goodies
Dinner: Coke Icee

I love burgers on the grill & really wanted another, but I held back. I also held back on having cheese on it. And I don't put anything except ketchup on it, so that helps a bit too I suppose. I also stayed away from the cookies & more tea & any soda. Overall, I think I did fine because the scale went down & not up or even stuck at the same.

Today I did 3 miles (elliptical) already. Woulda done more, but hot damn! Literally, it is sooooo warm! I don't want to have a heat stroke or anything. I will do more in a bit when I get back from errands.

Goals for this week---
at least 3 miles on elliptical/day, with 1 day off @ most
900-1100 cal range
the only weight goal I have is to go down, lol (don't set those weekly, hard to since ya don't know what the body will do since unfortunately we can't make it do exactly what we want)

Oh, Google must love me again because I tried to sign in without a proxy page, just straight shootin it & it let me! I hadn't tried over the weekend since I was gone a lot & I figure it hated me. Maybe it was punishing me in advance for Saturday's indulgence. ;)